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miriam_e ([personal profile] miriam_e) wrote2007-07-20 06:42 pm

2.5 eyes between the 3 of us

I don't know what to think. I'm sooo tired. I generally see myself as one of those people lost in a world of their own, who nothing touches. It is like I'm surrounded by this invisible armour. But I'm surprised to find something is wrong with the armour.

My wonderful dog Mali is in the Vet's tonight to have an operation on her eye. She is about 12 or 13 years old, so anaesthetic is dangerous. She has an ulcer on her eye and might end up losing it. The vet will try sewing the 3rd lid shut to give it a chance to heal, with lots of antibiotics too I expect. But the eye is part of another problem, and we are not sure what it is. There is a chance an infection has damaged her facial nerve on that side or a tumour. Either way the eye operation is probably just the first step.

That's why I'm tired. I have an odd reaction to stress: I fall asleep. (Like during the Ash Wednesday fires that killed all those people... I fell asleep.) I wouldn't have expected to be this bothered. It is very strange. I feel like I'm standing outside myself, calmly watching myself. I know something is upset but it almost doesn't feel like it is me.

Weird.

Oh, and the title of this post? Henry the dog is blind. Mali the dog seems to be blind in one eye now. And I've lost some of the sight in one of my eyes. So we have 2.5 eyes between the 3 of us.

Any more loss and we'll be the blind leading the blind.

[identity profile] sealwhiskers.livejournal.com 2007-07-20 02:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Good luck to you and puppy!

[identity profile] miriam-e.livejournal.com 2007-07-21 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
thanks :)

She is back with me today and will have a bucket on her head for a week to stop her scratching the stitches out of the eye.

We'll see how she fares.

[identity profile] cranky--crocus.livejournal.com 2007-07-20 05:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll be keeping your dog in mind and heart.

Good luck.


I don't remember what I do when I'm stressed. I suppose I'm always stressed--or have been in the last few years with all this hip gunk--and so the real statement is, I don't know what I do when I'm NOT stressed. I suppose I get more sleep.

Kiwi

[identity profile] miriam-e.livejournal.com 2007-07-21 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks :)

I hope things become less stressful for you. Hip problems are the absolute pits.

[identity profile] cranky--crocus.livejournal.com 2007-07-21 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
Yet the hip problems are almost over for a long while, hopefully! Yay! Almost a month post-op from hip replacement, and I've successfully taken my first unassisted steps. I get to wean myself off the cane now.

First time in more than three years that I'll be able to walk without assistance! Yaaaaay!

I'm excited. :D.

Kiwi

[identity profile] miriam-e.livejournal.com 2007-07-21 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
Wonderful news!

Hip problems scare the willies out of me. My grandmother suffered for the last decades of her life with hip pain and persistent problems from the operations. Thank heavens such surgery has improved far beyond that these days. Most people do really well now.